Okay so this is totally not like me. I'm the type to keep sex private and only with a man I love. I've had three sexual partners and all were long term bfs. Anyways, I met this guy freshman year of highschool. He was my boyfriend at the times friend. He related well to me. Like I was one of the boys xD but when the boys were upsetting him he'd come to me. We had a lot of fun together. And a lot of funny conversations in hs. But he developed Crohn's desease and couldn't finish hs. So we graduated and he didn't and we didn't really keep in touch cus of a bro code but I explained that his friend cheated on me and ended it badly and he was like damn he never told me what happened. So we became close. I helped him through a really bad break up and he got so depressed he was suicidal. So when He was released from the phyc ward I made him come live with me and go through Elayna boot camp. Which was pretty much a blast everyday. We'd go out and do some crazy ass thing all day or a little adventure. Whatever to get his mind off things.  We'd stay up late gaming or talking and we'd make dinner together. And we honestly were like inseparable friends or siblings even. It was simple. And I could talk to him About anything and everything and he didn't judge. If anything, he'd tell me something just as bad and we'd laugh and I'd feel better. He said I saved him. But then his grandpa died and he went and lived in Pennsylvania for like 6 months. And I developed IBS an he planned out my meals and helped me. And he was going through some stuff and he pretty much cut me off for like a month. Just didn't wanna talk. Said to save myself and leave him alone. But anyways, while he was gone, it hurt but I was fine. I'm a pilot so I occupied my time with that. And he came down to Florida for his brothers graduation and he had to live with his awful mom again and it ended in a big fight and him going to live with his father. He told me the whole mess and I honestly feel bad cus it wasn't his fault. His Symptoms were really bad. And anyways, we began talking more and he helped me through my rough break up and he promised we'd smoke together and have some fun while he was here. Well the other night him and I got pretty fucked up on FaceTime together and it turned into sextime... And it was like we were talking about sex and were like dude I'm horny, me too. Then we stopped caring and started showing and dirty talking. And I'll be honest, it was steamy and awesome. But then the next morning we were still friends and we both were like oops xD but were like those friends from American pie and he said he really enjoyed that night and I did too. And I think we're gunna hook up. And ik it's an emotional thing to do but like I just want him. Bad. And there's no strings i know. I can handle that. But like has anyone done this?