When I think about all of my siblings significant other... I cry deeper inside.

I am the youngest in my family, only 20 years old and my oldest sibling is 35. I've experienced all kinds of abuse in my relationship with my hubby. Broke it off with him and found out he was two timing me again (first was online, second was actually meeting the girl and fucking... but he says it doesn't count because we weren't officially together and was only working it out)... found out I was pregnant and gave our life another shot.

Then comes to find out. .... I can't deal with this depression. My sisters and brothers all older than me are going through this right now too. Their significant others are cheating on them or they're in abusive relationships... and I am forced to remember what I went through.

I now live in a world where true love doesn't exist. Friends of mines either turns into hoes, get abused, cheats. And its a cycle that will never end no matter their age, financial stability....

Nothing will ever be good enough to be considered as "good enough". And now I'm having the fear again. My husband has asked why am I distancing myself from him. But what do I say? Where do I start? Because then he'll say I'm playing victim... when this is what I've noticed. There's no such thing as true love. And that's the reason why I distance myself from people.

It just doesn't exist...

What do you guys think? Does it exist or not?