Suicidal thoughts

I know how ridiculous this sounds so please don't judge me. My 6 year relationship ended out of nowhere and I'm having a very tough time handling it. It's been over a month and it's just getting worse. I talk to my friends, family and a psychologist but I just can't get over this hump. We were engaged and about to buy a home. The reason he broke it off was because we agreed on an abortion 5 years ago and he has been burying his feelings about it for the last couple of years. I truly don't believe I would ever hurt myself but at this point idk how I can live everyday feeling like this. My psychologist asks if I have Suicidal thoughts and I say no cause I'm guessing she will commit me or something. Any advice would be much appreciated. And yes I have posted about this topic mutilple times but it truly helps me to get advice from you ladies. Thanks!