Scared to test

Me ans my SO be ttc for 8 months. I have been down on myself because it's seems that everyone is pregnant but me 😣 dont get me wrong im happy for the ladies that's expecting but I just want to be next 😓

Anyhow, I'm 6 days late. I've been having on and off symptoms. Also I've been checking my cm and it's been creamy. My SO keeps telling me to test but I'm scared I won't see 2 lines. I want to be a mom so bad 😟

I'll be testing this weekend hopefully I'll be getting great news!