I'm so happy at 9 weeks 2 days.

I had what they called a late miscarriage at 23w5days, I gave birth to my little girl who was kicking right until she hit the birth canel, my baby girl didn't make it and I buried her. This year January I was 11 weeks pregnant and I had a miscarriage. I'm now pregnant again and with all the worry to go with it, but I heard my baby's heartbeat which is a strong 152. And seen my baby heartbeat in a scan. I'm so happy, but I'm doing this on my own because the father was very horrible and wished my last baby dead, and it happen. I Havnt told him bout this one, I don't think he has the right to be involved in the pregnancy if him being like that, I don't need the stress. I'm all up for him being there for he's baby when born tho. What do other people think? do I sound selfish? I really need a stress free pregnancy and everything to be ok.