I had my son via emergency c section on June 11. He was 11lb 3oz and his size caused him to be stuck after 5 hours of pushing and to even get stuck during the c section. I had to be put out shortly after he was born due to emergency medical reasons. He was immediately taken to NICU and his blood sugar dropped to the 30s and they had to give him formula since I wasn't awake to breastfeed. We tried for days to get him to latch but he won't so I pumped my colostrum for him and then pumped until my milk came in and have now been feeding him breast milk in a bottle. I've had a fever between 99 and 101 since delivery. I'm on many medications and have a bruised sternum, ribs, and pelvis and was put on bedrest once releases from the hospital. My entire body is in so much pain and my pump makes it worse. It kills my nipples and it's probably worse because of my fever and body hurting. I just cry thinking of having to pump. It's taken a toll on me and I don't think I can keep going. My boyfriend and I talked earlier about formula feeding. I feel like a failure and like I'm being selfish and should just deal with the pain for my son. Everyone says how breast milk is so much better and I feel like the worst mom ever for switching.