Proud of myself😊

It's been almost 4 years since I first had sex (Not Willingly) that escalated into me having more sex more than most women maybe. I could say it made me addicted like I needed it 24/7. I was bad I use to leave the house like I was grown and don't come back till 2 days later. And my mom would report me missing, because when I was a little girl a little boy invited me into his house to play his game (yes it was a real game😂) I was like 8 and I told him I had to ask my mom & I forgot what he said but it made me go with him and his mom was outside doing the garden and he asked she she said "did you ask your mom if it was okay" the boy spoke for me and said yes but my mom was looking VERY where for me because I was once playing on the swing than I was gone when she came back out. But back to what this is really about " I told my mom I was kidnapped but I wasn't I was at a guy house (I know dumb ass teen (I was 14) blah blah blah the long story short the police said if my mom kept crying Wolf if I was really missing they wouldn't come looking for me and that made me change and I changed because I hated what I was doing to her, making her cry and worry every night. So I changed but before I could I had to stop my craving to sex and I did even tho it's not long it's a syart😏I haven't had sex since April of this year and for me that makes me so happy lol because and for the first time in almost 4 years I'm saying NO! To boys😊 I usually cave in because I was weak then now I found my voice and I'm not afraid to speck. I've started to realize I don't need a boyfriend to make me feel happy I just need to focus on my future which makes me EXTREMELY HAPPY! I want to become an neonatologist👶🏽 instead of having my own at a young age with no money really (even though I have a job) that's not enough so I want to make sure I do what I have to do to become an neonatologist. And also be diagnosed with chlamydia at 14 and now 16 makes me wonder about my future and it made me change also. I could never be able to have kids because of the one thing that drove me insane if I didn't have it tbh😔 but I pray and beg God for a family one day!☺️😔 it would break my heart if I couldn't you know