A thank you and a surprise

Hello ladies,

First let me say that for all the beautiful women who prayed and cried with us last year. I am grateful for you. I would find myself months after that awful day in November going back to my post about losing our son time and time again. I would read all the kind words you all had shared that day and it would give me comfort. Comfort to know I wasn't alone and that there was a community of strangers that actually genuinely cared and shared in the pain. It even felt like some of you mourned along with me and for all of that I am grateful for this community.

Found out sunday, surprise! We CAN get preggo on our own and it HAS happened!! WithOUT clomid and withOUT an IUI. A pure miracle!

Now...if only I wasn't so scared.

See I've been here before...happy, excited, thinking of baby names and the color I want to paint the nursery... all while trying to keep my breakfast down and get to the bathroom fast enough to enjoy the morning sickness.

My first, a girl...Eloise..we made it to 23 weeks.

Second ended at 8 weeks.

Third was a boy, George ...we made it to one Makena Shot and 16w+2.

I lost them.

I lost hope. I stopped tracking ovulation. And gave up.

And here we are...surprise. ..I'm pregnant again. Hey at least we can GET preggo on our own right?!?

But now....comes the hard part. I'm only 6w and a couple days.

And I cant. Stop. My. Brain.

I'm terrified.

My doctors have a plan.

A cerclage at 13 weeks . Sew up my cervix and pray for the best.

I guess I am just looking for any ladies who may have been/are in a similar situation as I am. Any words you all may have I greatly appreciate it.

Thanks for reading ladies and best of luck to you all during your pregnancy journeys.