Stressed beyond measure

You ever wonder just for once you wish your life would go according to plan, I know most ppl give you the occasional pep talk, like pray about it, things gonna work out, just try harder, or you'll find something better, but what if it feels as tho better never will come, what if you feel you don't have much prayer left in you, yea I believe that everything that's impossible somehow can always be possible but with not knowing what life is gonna bring it's scary, everyday we make a sacrifice to go out and make a living, staying alive for one, even relationships and family, but what if all of it seems it's a fail after fail, I feel like I'm in the mist of giving up, but something pushing me to do better, but yet it feel like it has yet to come, so many times I wanna break down and just crawl in a hole to myself shut the world off, as if nothing else matters, it just hurts not knowing what is your actual purpose to living to make something If yourself, my current sista ton with my home it sucks, as bills pile and always due, it stucks even more I have to put on a happy face and work a job I can't even make ends meet, and sometimes it sucks being in a realtionship where everything turns back on you, not saying I'm not cherished just one factor that I never get, I stuck as a crossing and I don't know which way to turn with my faith I'm so angry in side and it's scary that, that part of me wants to come out every min, all I'm asking is for prayer, and I'm just writing this post because somethings heavy on my heart...