Preparing for labor

Julia • Happily married, mommy to a 3 year old little girl and pregnant with baby number 2.
I told dh last night we need to start reading up on labor and he just gave me a horrified look and said "isn't that the midwifes job to help you." SMH there's a chance my mom and cousin/doula won't make it to the birth being out of state. With my husband unwilling to help I feel so alone in this. It's so scary. Can I really go through labor all my myself?