Y'all I am stressed 😂

what he also doesn't know is that I am all for being submissive while he's being dominant, so I ask him to tell me to tell me (even though he was trying to avoid it but I kept insisting) all of the things he wants to do to me and boyyyyyy. 

he goes on. tells me in deep deep detail. I just oh my god 😩 he was talking about bending me over so he can go deeper. going so deep I'll feel him in my stomach. ripping me open. coming in me, on my stomach, on my chest. sticking it in my mouth, taking it out for just a second to let me breathe and then putting it back. making me scream as loud as I can. biting me, pulling my hair and choking me (the last few came with examples y'all I didn't know what to do with myself 😂) there was more but literally there was so much that I got a little dizzy. I could see he was visibly getting stressed because one, he just wanted to do them right them, and two, because he knows he has to take it easy the first time. but I just wanted him to tell me again and again, over and over. he's always super gentle with me because he doesn't want to scare me or freak me out, but it was like something came over him that was making him aggressive (also kind of wanted him to go ahead and do them, but not a good idea considering my mama was in the next room and like I said I'm not on BC so it just wouldn't work out, not tonight 😂) - after that though he was talking about wanting me to be apart of his family so it was cute (but I was kind of just like… you can't choke me and pull my hair while talking about your family at the same time 😂, so he cut all that out and I figured I'd wait until he was done with the cutesy thing to insist he tell me again) but it got late and he has to get up early for work so he left and now I'm like WTF

and I know me asking this kind of makes me sorta freaky (but oh well he's referred to me as a freak on the low anyway, so I guess that's what I am 😂) buT HE JUST LEFT ME HANGING

It will probably only make things worse but if you were in the mood to spill any sexy time stories, go ahead and leave them here. (also any tips for when it does go down considering it would be my first time, appreciated)