Fat or what?

So last time I checked I weighted 172 but I'm not sure, now that I look better and tonned I weight myself and it says 204, so i don't know wtf happened, I could swear on my life that I weighted like 160 or something like that, I'm so depressed right now, I don't know what happened , I look better now and I eat healthier but I don't know what's wrong, it doesn't makes me upset that I weight 204, but the fact that I've been working so hard for what? To gain 30 lbs, I'm tall and I look  curvy and stuff but man... I don't know wtf happened, all this paragraph probably didn't make sense but oh well 😐