Yesterday I was an emotional wreck. It started off with my temp dropping from 98.44 to 97.75. I'm TTA this cycle per Dr, but still got really sad when I saw that. That also means AF is on her way, and I'm probably PMSing. 😒 (I haven't had a period since April.) Later I realized was the 1 month anniversary of my mc... Sometimes I feel like I don't know how to handle it, then I remember I am, but I still feel bad/awful/off. I don't know how to describe it.

I tried to tell DH that I needed a little extra TLC, but with the heat he's been working in, and his exhaustion from it, I don't think he received the full transmission. Other than thanking me for dinner & saying it was delicious, there wasn't much talking. 😪

I feel better than I did last night, but still not great. My face has broken out, which never happens 😞, I'm cramping, and I'm completely lacking motivation to do anything that doesn't involve playing on my phone or necessary bodily functions.

I feel like I was so close... I was 7w5d with a blighted ovum and it's the closest I've managed in 9 years of TTC to having my own baby in my arms... and it was still so far away. I'm trying really hard to not be angry at God. Partly because I finally got a BFP, but mostly bestie I went a decade being mad at God after my dad died suddenly when I was 22. ... My arms & heart don't ache atm, so that's something.

Anyone else deal with this crap after their mc?