Last year he confessed to being in love with me since we first met and he asked me to be his girlfriend, but I turned him down because I just got out of a relationship a month prior and I was still sad about it so I didn't wanna jump into anything. But ever since then all I could think about was being with him. Back in the beginning of May (2016) I told him how I felt, and he said he still felt the same way and it was great. He asked me what I wanted and I told him I wanted to be with him. BUT mid-May he left to go on tour with this drumline group he's a part of. He's not coming home (for good) until August 20th so we decided to hold off on anything until he got back.

So fast forward to now. I haven't talked to him since he left. Which I understand, he's constantly busy with concerts and practice and competitions and etc. I'll send him snapchats or texts every so often to just say goodnight or good morning, hope you have a good day and all that but I never got a response. Just open snapchats with no reply, read texts and nothing. I understand that he's busy but it'd be nice to get a goodnight or and I miss you or an ily back, you know? Cause it only takes a few seconds out of the day.

And it's not like it's something he's had a problem with saying in the past. Before all of this came up we said I love u to each other all the time. I stopped sending those messages because there was really no point if he was just gonna ignore them..

Anyway. About two nights ago he got a break from touring, he was able to go home but only for about 7 hours then he had to go back. And I had to find that out through his snapchat story? So I sent him a snapchat just saying hey....and here's how the conversation went:

Me: Hey

Him: I'm home 👍🏼

Me: Cooool for how long?

Him: 7 hours haha

Me: Oh fun, how's everything going?

-opened 2hrs ago, never replied-

Me: Okay well goodnight, hope everything's going well ✌🏼️

Soo...idk. If he wanted to talk to me he would talk to me right? It just gets me worried...like what if he's having second thoughts or whatever. Or what if he met someone else. I'm crazy insecure and I overthink a lot so that doesn't help. I want more than anything to talk about all this with him but I don't wanna put any pressure on him, especially if we aren't even together. He's just so busy it's impossible to get a hold of him. The best I can do is wait until August when he gets home to see what happens. His birthday is coming up July 25th and he told me he has the day off, but judgin by the way he acted the other night he had off idk how that's gonna go. And even if I do bring it up I don't know how to do so without seeming crazy? Like why aren't you talking to me? Is there someone else? Do you not like me anymore? Because that DOES sound crazy, to me anyway. 😅

I'm just worried and needed to vent. Any advice about any of this would be appreciated. Just needed to get it off my chest I suppose!