I just need to vent cause I don't want my family to worry... I seriously hate the father of my child. After 7 years we broke up cause he was a cheater and a liar. I was celibate for 2 1/2 years and slept with him 1x after that and ended up pregnant. Now I'll be a single mother which I never wanted to happen. I waited so long to have children, I'm in my 30s cause I never wanted a broken family for my children. I can't believe I did this to my child! I lost my job due to the pregnancy and nobody else would hire me. I'm so utterly screwed and my poor child has to be brought up in this. Sometimes I wish God would just let me die already!