Sad Times have come

Note this happened yesterday night at 1:00 am

My boyfriends brother he found out that his brother was in a severe motorcycle accident and heand his family rushed down here to be there for him

He was going over a bridge when suddenly a truck rushed passed him and knocked over the fencing causing the car to crash at least a hundred feet above the ground and land upside down onto a freeway.

He had to be taken out by a firemans drill and pliers and my boyfriend is taking it not so well he hasn't left his brothers side and Jesse (the guy whos car got flipped over the bridge and upside down, is in a coma and the doctors dont know if he's ever gonna wake up.

Two times my boyfriend lashed out at me and I feel like its all my fault. Right now I am sitting on the couch crying my eyes out and feeling like shit.

What can I do I am stressed out and feeling like shit while everyone whom I love and care about is flipping out on me I feel like lying on a road waiting for a car to run over me.