My grandpa committed suicide. 42 My uncle committed suicide. 23. My dad is depressed. My mom has severe anxiety. There's definitely something wrong with my cousin. I watched him kill a bird for fun. I just feel so hopeless and broken. I think it's in my genes. Most of my cousins are depressed or doing hard drugs. I'm severely depressed and I can't figure out how to get help. But my family's history makes me feel like I can never get better, like it's just how  we are.  Does anyone else feel this way? Plz give me stories to make me feel like I can turn this around somehow.