I had a miscarriage on July 3rd my husband's birthday and I have so many emotions that I have to repress because I'm supposed to be moving on but I can't help how I feel I talked about it with others but nobody knows exactly what I'm going through because I've never been through it I've never been through it I know we'll try again but I'm so scared of having another miscarriage. I just I'm consumed with why did it happen when I wanted this baby so bad all my other girls were not planned but this one we planned and it was stripped away from me it hurts so bad. But through all this pain I totally see her husband with more love than I've ever known I'm so deeply in love with him and I don't even think he knows that but I know he loves me and I know that when the time comes we will be blessed again but in the meantime it'll just hurt so bad. At least I know where my baby is at it with his great grandpa up in heaven. I know I'm just rambling on and on but I know that you ladies know exactly what I'm feeling thank you for listening.