I'm beyond frustrated with my body. I'm overwhelmed by feelings of hopelessness. Unless I hit the lottery, I'll never know what it's like to be a mother to my own child. Relationship issues, health issues, financial issues, but the PCOS takes the cake. I wish I had regular cycles so I had the same chance of getting pregnant that roughly 90% of women have. I wish I was one of those women who needed birth control because they were worried about getting pregnant. Instead my body does wtf it wants when the fuck it feels like it. I've ovulated naturally once in the last 18 months. We did 3 rounds of Clomid last summer. It made me ovulate but I didn't end up pregnant. We were told we would need <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a> or <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> to get pregnant. I don't know how it is for some people, but we do not have $5,000+ laying around to try fertility treatments that will most likely be unsuccessful. I feel like the world and everything in it is against us and now me. He packed all his stuff last night and left while I was gone. He even took his cat. I haven't talked to him and don't really care to. I'm just so over everything. Blessing in disguise? Maybe, but at 32 I feel it's fates way of telling my dreams really won't come true. More than anything I want a man who'll love me unconditionally and be an amazing father to our children. If I can ever get pregnant. Some of you may feel that 32 is still young, but with the bonus of PCOS, being high risk for coronary heart disease and prediabetes, as well as needing psych meds, the future doesn't look so bright. I just want to be happy and have a fulfilling life that I can share with those I care for most. I don't think it's asking too much. I need a prayer