Pre partum depression

And one else struggling right now? Yes this baby was planned-ish. And I'm happily married... But now? I just don't feel it. I don't feel the happiness I should. I don't even want to tell my entire family, because I don't want to deal with people knowing and treating me like I'm pregnant. It's horrible, I know, and feeling this way is making me suffer. I'd just like someone to talk to who understands. I have moments where I'm excited about this baby. Just not as much as a I should.