For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand— when I awake, I am still with you. Psalm 139:13‭-‬18 NIV http://bible.com/111/psa.139.13-18.NIV  Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;  in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5‭-‬6 NIV http://bible.com/111/pro.3.5-6.NIV My husband and I have been trying for 1 full year. TTCing has been a true emotional rollercoaster. In the beginning I did the ovulation tests and fervently tracked my period and fertile days. I often mistaked PMS for pregancy symptoms. I was discouraged, disappointed and sometimes distraught to have a NPT or get my period. My husband and family constantly encouraged me in the LORD. GOD is the giver or life. His will and timing are perfect. I would remind myself that I want what Christ wants for me....not my will but his will. This was not easy. My hope, faith and trust was tested, but held on to GOD's grace through all the disappointment. I decided to remove all the trackers from my phone during our 11th cycle. I decided to forget my fertile days and just baby dance with my husband. I started to feel a bit of pulling and cramping last week, that definitely seemed different. I tried not to focus to much on this,  but I was hopeful. I got a few headaches, but this is typically suggestive of my period being near. I had a NPT one day before my period and I became so stressed...I asked GOD to take the desire to become a Mom for the 2nd time away. I went out and bought a box of tampoons to get ready for AF. She never came. My breast also seemed bigger and my CM was on steriods lol. I tested today, 4 days after my missed period and received this most amazing news. I'm praying for all you guys out there. Put your trust in GOD. He'll bless you, when it's perfect. In the mean time, try not to stress and let this consume you.  Focus on all your blessings!! Baby#2. Our big girl will be a big sissy!