NICU & surgery after birth

Any other moms dealing with complications of your little baby? & getting more and more scared and feeling helpless? Cuz I sure am. All these appointments and specialists. I'm due sept. 21st. But they are taking my little girl sept 2nd. I have everything prepared but mentally I'm not ready. I'm not ready for her to come out and start her battles & the surgery and the very long recovery & battle with this illness in the NICU. :/