My problem with pregnancy. **edit**

But when I look at my belly I can NOT for the LIFE OF ME see a baby. I see my belly, and know I am pregnant. But I cannot picture a baby in their at all. I can't put the idea of a newborn covered in film with an umbilical cord fresh out the vag back INSIDE the vag. I can't. I can't seem to put the two images together. Does anyone else struggle with this?

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I realize a lot of FTMs agree with me here 😂 as well as mom's of multiple kids. This is my second, and my first was the same way. No connection, couldn't put the image of a baby to my belly. I almost think it's sweeter this way though. I remember when they laid him in my arms. He opened his little steel grey eyes and looked at me... And something snapped. The universe halted, the earth came to a stop. The Stars realigned and all I knew was this precious, innocent, vulnerable little boy in my arms. I never felt love so strong and powerful in my life. It wasn't until that moment that I became a mom. There was nothing I wouldn't do, wouldn't sacrifice, wouldn't choose to give my little one the best there is. He made me better from the moment our eyes met, and I wouldn't be who I am without him. Don't worry about not connecting, or having this image issue. The absolutely overwhelming power of the love bond between mother and child will come when it's time. And it is a beautiful, frightening, Unbreakable thing.