Advice Please

Emily
I have been dealing with some very concerning health issues lately. I have episodes where I start slurring, have difficulty  walking and basically feel like I'm winding down. Sometimes I can't even move or speak at all.  It's terrifying. 
At a doctors appointment a few days before my 30th birthday, my mom told the doctor that I was diagnosed with CP as a child. She had never told me this. I had to ask what Cp is. It's cerebral palsy. I have cerebral palsy and my parents kept it from me for 30 years. 
I am devastated   Any advice or words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated.  I can't stop crying.