Idk....I just don't know

My period is 2 days late...and I don't think it's going to come......last week I had spotting very very light and it stopped....my breast are a no fly zone....I have white discharge with no sign that a period might come I don't know if I've had any cramps my pain tolerance is so high I don't even acknowledge small pains.....I'm taking a test Thursday I will have officially missed my period then.....I just don't know I want the out come to be.