So I have this ex. Well he's hurt me so much! But I keep going back to him time after time. I've had sex twice my whole life. But he is the second guy I've had sex with.. But I feel more connected to him than the guy I lost my virginitiy too. I know it probably sounds slutty and I'm sorry, but I keep giving him chance after chance. He's cheated on me oh so many times.. But even then I'll take him back. It's like in ways I can't let him go. I feel like I love him, but I don't think I do. I'm not sure. He'll flirt with me while he has a gf and even when he doesn't. I've been single two almost three months. We broke up. He's dated three or more girls since then! Everyone has warned me about him. I've never listened to anyone, as you can tell. But I really want to tell him to exist my life, but I can't. My mouth won't let me. I'll go to say something then I'll say never mind. We fight all the time too! We've fought more than anyone I believe. It's just so much!! But I put myself through it over and over again. I have a guy I am talking to. Eli, he's been talking to me about maybe a month ish? I'm even scared of being hurt by him. He tells me all the time not all guys are evil. Well that's all I've been around. Ugh I just hate my love life..