Wait and ttc later or just go for it now?

I've had two miscarriages back to back within 2 months of eachother one at 5 one at 7. I really want to try now but at the same time I feel so defeated and like what's the point because I'll probably lose the next one. But at the same time we want a family so bad that I just to go for it and keep trying. Hubby says its up to me because it's my body that has to physically heal and my mental state that gets thrown out of whack. I'm so torn. I want to just keep trying but my fear is getting in the way because I don't know if I can handle another miscarriage right now after going through 2 this past summer.