_I KNOW ITS A LONG READ BUT HELP ME OUT_ ❤❤❤

I am currently 5 months pregnant and my husband lives in america where I lived for 5 months until I got to my home country the UK. I was originally meant to visit and the only reason that was is because I was homesick anyway but my husband started talking down to me so I left.

A week before I was due to fly out my husband argued with me and made me choose its either stay with him and his new rules and be alone with the puppy for the month because he didn't want to pay for a sitter or go to the UK (as previously planned) and he wouldn't want me back, regardless that I was visiting.

I was scared of his behaviour. I packed my bags, left a note to say I'd decided to go. On and off that week me and my husband were seeing eachother , I slept at his house twice. Nearly 3 times and we did have sex.

I have told my family too many bad things about him and they all hate him. At the time he made me anxious to live with him, he would talk down to me. Nip me and pin me down even when I told him not to and he kicked off easily. Took my phone off me and was stubborn.

Now I'm pregnant and at the UK im thinking .

I know deep down I left for a good reason,no girl should be mistreated . he couldn't even tend after a puppy so he would be useless with a kid.

But now I sit and miss him, his attention. His touch. I feel horrible for leaving myself as a single mother at the age of 22 I feel like no one will want me and it might get too much.

I have no income either, he is in the American army and gets paid double his wage so he can pay towards my living but he doesn't send me money anymore , what he did send wasn't even near enough to pay anything.

I've done the right thing ?

Even when I was with him, yes I had a house but with a bad atmosphere where I was stressed everyday and even though he had money he didn't pay me on time or enough and now I owe the bank money and my credit is bad.

He also guilt tripped me and said that he won't witness the birth of his first child, which is also my first and if he wanted he probably could take the time off to see it as I'm due in early Jan but he is deciding to use his holidays up to see his family for the second time this year instead.

Go alone?

Or go back ? Both comfort and the babies sake.

Thoughts , please. Ladies.