Sugical sterilization

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Seriously so excited to find this group! 
Ok my first serious question here goes: I am currently pregnant with number 5 and we are done. Fasted prayed knew there was one more after 4 but now I am sure our earthly family is complete via my body😀
In the church handbook it discourages permanent sterilization. I cannot take birth control because of a clotting issue and I hate taking it anyway! I cannot get pregnant again- it is so hard on me. I feel like my husband and my family have to take on the role of motherhood for 9 months because I am too dehydrated weak or on modified bed rest. ( I have iugr and don't make enough amniotic fluid) 
Anyway- I know many members of the church have gotten surgical sterilization even our previous bishop. Many of my friends have also. I just feel like I am justifying either my or my husband doing it.
Personal experiences anyone? 
Or advice. 
Thank you!

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