Feeling deflated

Ugh I'm just getting so worn down and deflated. I'm a single mom and had to move back in with my parents after splitting with my sons dad. I never get to go out and do things baby free. It's not that I want to be away from my son it's just that every once in a while I would like to go and do something without him. I wanted to go and see a movie tomorrow night with my mom and sister (it's been a year and a half since I've been). So I asked my sister if she would ask her friend if she would mind babysitting for me (the only one of hers I actually trust) and she made a huge deal about it and apparently it's "weird" to ask her. So now I can't go. It's just so frustrating that I can't even go and see a freaking movie. 😭 sorry just needed to vent.