I can't be cute because I'm fat?

Mya
So.. I've been told that being a big girl makes me ugly. Countless guys have turned me down for my size and they all say that being "fat," if you must, is absolutely disgusting. It's often hard for me to find a guy who likes me for me and I'm beginning to just give up. I'd love to become more confident in myself and my body but the comments always knock me down. What can I do to prevent them from getting inside my head? And is it possible to find a guy who will like me without changing my appearance? (I'm the blue by the way haha)