Depressed, nesting, anxious

Since last Friday my four year old has been in North Carolina at the beach and won't be home until this Sunday. I've been so lost without him and he doesn't even say more than one sentence when he calls because he's too busy. In the meantime, everything is ready for new baby and I just chose the outfits to take to the hospital for him. I wish it would just happen already while my son is away so I have something to do haha. I'm just sitting, waiting, wishing...