Girls of eve, I really need you..

I have PTSD. Severe PTSD, from when I was raped. I have vivid nightmares, sometimes of what happened, and sometimes of demon like creatures. It's extremely terrifying. I wake up shaking unable to breathe.

Now, I was dating this guy since may. We broke up recently and usually we would stay on the phone all night and for some reason that helped a lot with my dreams. Since we've broken up I've had one nearly every night. I've hardly slept. I'm terrified to close my eyes, because a lot of times I'll see flashes of their faces.

Please don't tell me to go to therapy or get on meds, I have. And it doesn't help. I don't know if im looking for advice, or if I just want someone to understand that I'm going through a lot right now...

Thank you for reading..