What would you do if you were me?

6 years ago I had a c section that didn't go so well. I tried vaginally but couldn't dilate past 4 cm after 20 something hours. Well, they had problems getting the spinal block in and after many attempts they decided to put me to sleep. Well the surgery went well. when I woke up I was in sooooo much pain and I was so drugged up I didn't get to spend much time with my daughter. For the first 3 days it wasn't a good experience for me. I hemorrhaged pretty bad and lost so much blood. I had to have two blood transfusions. My recovery was ok and the scar healed up nice. I haven't had any problems with it since the hospital stay. My Dr has approved me for a v bac but I'm scared I'll end up doing the same thing, trying for so many hrs and not being able to dialate all the way and then have to have a c section anyways after all that labor pain. What should I do? What would you do? I really don't wanna be cut open again and have to deal with all that pain of recovery but I'm not sure about a vbac since it didn't go well last time. Ahh. I've posted about this before but I'm hoping I'll get more feedback and different opinions. Thanks guys.