That didn't last long....

I only knew for a week but that was the best damn week of my life. That was #6. I'm a little over 5 weeks and my hcg was 6... My hpt was getting darker but today I took a frer vs a regular fr and the frer was almost not noticeable. My mom said her hcg was low too but mines going down now... Just gotta wait till I get the blood work tomorrow to be sure but I'm sure I'm done for. I give the hell up... I can't take this pain anymore. I'm saving up money to adopt. I still want my own sooooooooo bad, but it won't happen. I mean how many 19 year old do you know who have lost 6 pregnancies and had a healthy baby? None or very few. All my re tests came up normal. So idk what else to do...