advice / venting

so me and my husband were on a rocky road before I found out I was pregnant and then I was and still am obsessed with him , but we are bumping heads with bills . he said he doesn't want to help pay rent because he wants to save all his money for the baby . but I'm like that's sweet in all but what sense does that make the baby isn't here yet and plus we still have to have a roof over our heads before the baby comes because I am NOT living with my mother or his . & so the argument progressed and he told me I need to grow up so I flipped my shit on him and called him a "little bitch" ..... ( okay I know I'm wrong for this ) but I didn't feel bad about it at the time and now I do & we woke up this morning and I was still mean to him and had an attitude of course . ugh then last night I'm just thinking to myself like I can't do this - I can't have a baby with him and I don't think I want the baby .... then when I think like that it makes me sad because this is my first pregnancy and I want the baby but I don't want a baby with the wrong person but I don't even know . there is no but , UGH this pregnancy has my hormones going crazy & on top of alllllllllll of that I haven't told my parents that I'm pregnant yet because more than positive they won't be supportive especially my mother . so how do I even go about that ? I was going to wait till I was 12 weeks .