emotionally drained!

Today makes a week exactly from my c-section. If you have had one before you can feel my pain. I had a difficult labor. I walked in to L&D with a high blood pressure which caused them to induce me at 38 weeks. I was put on pitocin and once the pain got bad I was given an epidural I progressed up until I reached 6cm that's when my progression stopped and to top things off my epidural wore off and I was in the worst pain I have ever felt so I had to endure being poked again for the second epidural. 28 hours into labor and my doctor said we will have to do a c-section. I was taken to the OR where I was told they would numb me but during the surgery I felt everything. I was in so much pain my heart rate dropped and I was put to sleep. I missed seeing my son when he was first taken out I didn't get to see him until almost 5 hours later. I was then given a blood transfusion because my blood level reached 5.6. In the end I know it was all worth it once I held my son but I can deny that I was left a little traumatized. I am home now and my fiancé had been acting very supportive it was a side of him I hadn't seen in a while. Knowing he was there for me throughout everything and being there for me and my son once we arrived home meant the world to me but 7 days after my c-section he decides that he has helped me with the baby all week he deserves to go out to the club with his friends while I'm left at home with the baby. I feel like that was quite selfish on his part and I  didn't know how to handle it so i broke down and cried so hard my incision began to hurt so bad. I can't take my pain meds because I'm All alone with the baby. Words can't describe what I'm feeling I'm not sure if I'm overreacting but I didn't know how else to react! :'(