I am 1 in 4

I just lost a little girl at 18 weeks, she measured 16 weeks. Im beyond depressed after 2 miscarriages this year. There were three other mothers around me that i knew were pregnant, so i literally am 1 in 4. How do you cope when you did everything right, yet cannot be blessed with the one thing you truly want. For now i am going to put off ttc and see where life takes me. God bless you all. 😢😭