please help...such a long post but please read and reply 😰

I had a miscarriage a few weeks ago, well it was a chemical pregnancy but it still feels like my heart has been crushed. I probably sound really naive but I thought I'd feel better by now but it just keeps hitting me like a tsunami when I least expect it. When I'm alone I cry and cry and I must sound like a dying animal or something - it hurts beyond anything I can explain 😔 

Has anyone ever experienced a miscarriage early on but still felt pregnant for a long time? It's like my body is having a phantom pregnancy or something, it's sick. I didn't know that was possible either. I feel like I'm being selfish because I have a beautiful healthy little girl who will be 3 next month so I'm so lucky and grateful that  I have her, she feels like such a miracle to me now but at the same time I feel like me sitting and grieving over a baby who barely existed is selfish when I have her to concentrate on. 😐😰.

Sorry this is such a long post, so many things are going through my mind I can't even breath half the time. My husband wasn't ready for another baby when I fell pregnant as it was an accident. He's obviously still devastated this has happened and is grieving too but it hasn't hit him as hard, I think that's fair really. He's being so supportive and brilliant and I know he understands but he still doesn't feel ready for a baby. I feel so broken because I want to get pregnant so badly now but I can't because he doesn't want one yet. How do I cope with this? I'm so ready to be a mother again my body feels so empty. How do I cope with this until he is ready? Please help 😔