rainbow, after MC

Belinda
They never tell you that after a MC and the rainbow appears, that it's even more stressful. 
You worry constantly and every none movement day is another day you wish you could run to the Drs or hospital and ask them to check on your little bean.
I find my self waking up at night in a puddle of sweat, rubbing my belly and hoping that inside, she alright, all nice and warm and cozy. That it's just me freaking out again. 
Having strength has been something I've been good at, but after a MC you fight just to show the courage. Because , inside you are a screaming anxious mess. All I can think about is how I can't wait until Febuaray 14 couldn't get here any sooner, just some have her in my arms and I can tell her it's going to be alright.