Sunday my husbands sister (so my sister in law) who just got married end of July sent us her positive test. My heart sank and I've been deeply depressed since. Every time we see his parents (often) his mom asks why am I not pregnant yet and it's not hard. We've been trying 10 months (married last November) so basically right away. And now to see someone get pregnant with no trying almost instantly....I'm broken hearted. Underneath, I am happy for them. But on the surface I'm hurt, frustrated and confused.

All she did was send a pic of the test. For someone who's dying to see those two lines, I think that made it hurt worse. She also knows everything I've been going through...and I feel like maybe a call or a private message (this was a group text) should have been more appropriate. Husband doesn't understand and just says "oh we will have one" but he isn't the one taking the meds, peeing on dozens of sticks a month and seeing all the negative tests. 

I know we all have our own timeline but it just made me feel like such a failure having tried for almost a year and she tried not at all. Plus, I was over the moon about finally ovulating and I feel stupid. 

I just needed to vent to people who hopefully can understand. I feel like everyone has been against me (in my life) and all I want to do is just get my feelings out. Thanks