Grateful Recovering Addict

I just want to post on here the gratitude I have for life today. I REALLY do not need the negativity either, I know the choices I used to make were wrong.

Not too long ago I was homeless, hungry and hooked. I got caught up in a life long battle. My life was so out of control. My own family was afraid to have me in there home and were sure they were going to bury me any day.

Today, I am 100% sober, I even quit smoking cigarettes. I have my own apartment, a car, a job and am expecting my first baby girl with the love of my life. It just really hit home today, when I walked into my apartment and saw all the things I have acquired. I now have a full fridge, instead of begging for change for the dollar menu. All the things I can now afford. I also just realized my fortune after I just saw a woman still struggling in addiction, nodding out in her car.

For the 14th time in a year I checked myself into detox. I kept doing it as a way to get out of the cold, eat, shower and take a break. This time, I found out I was pregnant. I was so happy but also upset to know I was doing drugs while I was unknowingly pregnant. That changed me though, for the first time I stayed and COMPLETED treatment. I left with a safe place to go. Two days after leaving, I miscarried. I was DEVASTATED. the old me would have started using again and drowned in my sorrows. Something changed though and I didn't. As upset as I was, I kept fighting.

And what do you know, 19 days later, I got pregnant again. To this day, I am so grateful God blessed me with that baby. Though I never got to have the baby, he or she will never know how much my life changed because of him/her. I know I am not alone in this and there are other women on here who have been through the same, and I applaud you in beating one of the hardest things a person can fight!