I just don't know anymore
My boyfriend has horrible anxiety & depression. We've been together a little over two years. Good days, are absolutely amazing. Bad days... are horrible. I just don't know if I can do it anymore, but then when I have that thought I get mad at myself, because this is when he needs me most. It's so hard tho, he'll push me away. Sometimes he'll say rude things, (which isn't him at all). Then he'll apologize. I want to spend my life with him & marry him. But nights like tonight, I'm sitting in bed crying over a dumb comment, that I know he didn't mean for it to come off the way it did...but it did. I keep telling myself, once he gets help, things will get better, but what if they don't ? I don't want to leave him, but I just don't know if I can continue to handle all this. I just don't know what to do
Side note : I don't want any rude or negative comments. Don't tell me, that I don't love him. Unless, you've dealt with someone who has anxiety and depression, you will truly not understand what I go through. Yes, anxiety & depression sucks, but it also sucks for the people who love someone with it. And it's hard. It's hard to watch someone you love have to deal with it, and it's also hard when it's someone your extremely close to, and actually have to deal with it all the time. If you have nothing nice to say don't say anything. Thanks.
I have been encouraging him to get help. We've talked about him going to see a psychiatrist. I called to try to get him an appointment then need to talk to him. He still has yet to call. I don't know how much to push him.
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