no epidural

Am I crazy for not wanting an epidural? Anyone else not get an epidural?? how'd it go? I have scoliosis and panic anxiety I dont want to risk more back problems and or have an anxiety attack from not being able to feel my body. Someone Please tell me I can do this. Im 33 weeks 2days and thinking about how close I'm getting is freaking me out. I gotta prepare myself for a non medicated delivery..