I'm Confused😐

So I Had A Best Friend I Went To His House We Chilled He Was Laying On Me Like On My Breast And He Had Pulled Me On Top Of Him. I Had To Stop Him Cause I Have A Boyfriend, He Stopped But Laid Back Down On My Chest Then He Started Running My Butt While We Talked.

I Know That I Don't Love Him But I Want Him Really Bad Like Lustfully.

And I Love My Boyfriend It's A Long Distance Relationship I Would Never Do Anything To Hurt Him We Been Together For Almost 2 Years.

Then To Top It All Off My So Call Best Friend Isn't Texting Me Back.