i want to die so badly. i have nobody in my life i can turn to that won't judge me or make me feel like crap. my best friend slut shames me, my mother would murder me, my boyfriend persuades me into sex when i don't want it. i know he loves me and doesn't want to hurt me but i cant let him in. I'm just a godless whore that lost it at 16. im having an anxiety attack because today he persuaded me into sex at his house and his mom found that condom wrapper on the couch because both of us were too dumb to pick it up. if she tells my mother im going to be dead. i don't want sex. i don't like sex. but i cant say no to him without feeling guilty and i am so so so alone I have nobody I am nobody