Help need advice!! Be nice!!

Im 4 days to my period and i think im pregnant. This is a big deal bc we have been trying for 15 months n we have lost my babies already one at 28 weeks and the other at 21 weeks. I gave my body a break for a year and we have been trying but i cant seem to get pregnant. So back to my problem, my period should start in 4 days but i have so many pregnancy symptoms. Sore nipples, tired is number one, im extremely horny and every morning after breakfast im so sick that im running to the bathroom. I took a test this morning but it was unclear.

I know most will say wait it out but im so scared and nervous at the same time. Bc in the back of my head i keep thinking im going to keep losing babies. How can i get that out my head??