I don't know what to do ):

So, I'm a lesbian. I met this girl in September 3rd. I started to really really like her! She's so pretty, nice, loving, sweet, and has the biggest heart. I thought I fell in love with her. I fall kinda fast so I asked her to be my girlfriend on September 15th. I was in love with her. I couldn't imagine my life without her and she was world. Now I'm starting to realize I went too fast. She treats me like perfectly! She never judges me and she's one of a kind! She buys me flowers and she's everything I ever wanted. But I feel trapped and I feel like no emotion anymore. I feel no spark and I feel like I've trapped myself in feelings I wasn't sure about. Now she's head over heals for me but I don't feel anything and she deserves so much better then that. I hate myself for what I've done to myself and I'm heart broken at the fact I can't find that spark anymore. What do I do ):