Still Struggling

I lost my baby January 10 of this year. I was,and still am, crushed. I was 8 weeks along and the month that I knew my baby was there, I loved them, so much. I am struggling 9 months later a month after when I was due. I keep seeing people become pregnant, have babies and continually grow their families and while I am super happy for them....I'm sad for me. There are teenagers, girls who had one-night stands, girls who would rather party girls who just had babies less than a year ago...and it kills me. I've been TTC since March and nothing...every month is a let down. I just really want my Rainbow...