Divorce

Me and my husband are probably getting a divorce and I don't wanna tell anyone else yet I feel like my whole world is shattered even though I know its for the best . he is mean to me and when he got me so upset tonight that he caused a panic attack he just stood there I couldn't breathe and my chest hurt and he just kept standing there I can't do this anymore he hasn't shown Amy interest in our family or my feelings he isn't loving toward me and all I feel is this heart wrenching pain and I feel all alone I just wanna scream and cry and strangely I hate him for all he has put me through